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After that party I felt officially done with Chris. I wasn’t angry, I was just over it.
I decided to post a tiktok, because I love stirring the pot.
I was wearing makeup, in a big hoodie that Matt had given me. After I stole it so much.
I sang “grave” by Nessa and i just knew people were gonna talk “You’re my deep end, keep me breathing I’m held on with glue, the only thing keeping me out of the grave is you”
In my mind at first it wasn’t about anyone in particular. I just wanted people to think I was talking to someone new.
But then I really thought about the lyrics, the only person that popped up was Matt.
He had always been there for me. Regardless of what was going on he was always there for me and comforting me. He knew exactly what I needed and how to calm me down, like nobody else did.
The comments were flooding in immediately.
“Our girl has moved one”
“Yeah slay I wonder who the new man is”
Since they were going on tour pretty soon, we were having a scary movie night with all of the friends.
We were setting up in the living room “I think we need some more blankets. Matt can you go?” Nick said “I’ll come with you” . I smiled since I felt bad.
We went down to the garage. “I think they are over here” I followed him to one of the shelves and I held a bunch of them.
Then as Matt had grabbed a bunch too, the lights went out.
“What the fuck” i chuckled. I turned my flashlight on and went to the door.
But it was an automatic lock, so we were locked in. And the garage door was stuck too “Fuck, has this happened before?” I asked “Yea, last time the power was out for like two hours” he said and as I looked at him, I could sense the nerves. He was terrified ever since they got stuck in that elevator.
“It’s fine, we’ll be okay. Okay?” I said, making him look at me and take in a breath “Yea” he said.
Then we heard footsteps, running down the stairs “Guys?” It was Nick “We’re okay!” I said going up to the door “Okay good, we just called the electrician, we’re working on it okay?” He said “Okay well be fine just text me updates my phone is fully charged” i said.
“Okay, hang in there guys. Matt, are you okay?” Nick asked “Yeah i’m okay” he smiled, slightly nervously.
“C’mon” I took the blankets from Matt and placed them in the middle of the floor, as seats.
I grabbed his wrist, making him sit down “Do you have anything with batteries down here?” I asked “Yeah, back shelf over there” he pointed.
I went and grabbed a bunch of fake candles and lit them.
“See? We’re okay. This is cosy, I feel like we should be telling scary stories” i sat with him making him smile “I’m just glad this isn’t like a small space” he smiled “Yeah, we can survive down here for sure” i chuckled.
We shared stories, about getting stuck in other places, for a little while.
“Actually, if I have to be locked in a room with anyone. I'm glad it’s you” he confessed “Me too…I’m pretty sure i would end up killing anyone else” i chuckled making him laugh “Oh god, imagine Nick being stuck in here” he laughed.
My phone buzzed “The electrician won’t be here for an hour, maybe two. So hang in there guys” Nick texted me “Well damn” i chuckled.
“Actually i have an idea, lay down like this” i had him lay down. I laid down as well opposite way and our heads lined up “I’m almost afraid to ask” he chuckled.
“Stop, it’s just a fun thing i did with a friend once” i said “Alright shoot”
“Because we can’t look eachother in the eyes it’s easier to say things. So just tell me the first word that comes to mind. I should preface that I did this while high, so everything was funny” i said, making him chuckle “Alright, I get the jist of it” he said.
“So first word, go” i said “Sunset” he said making me laugh “Alright elaborate”
“The candles are kinda giving orange light, so kinda sunset you know?” He said “Ah makes sense. God i love sunsets” i smiled.
“Me too..but I miss them back in Boston. Of course the beach one's here are cool, but the ones with the mountains and stuff, god i miss that” he explained.
“I completely understand. I just miss Boston in general. Do you remember that night after graduation, where we all went to the mountain top and watched the sunset with everyone from class?” I asked.
“Yeah I remember, last night we were all together.” He said “Yeah…i'm so glad we kept in touch you know? We could’ve easily just said that’s, it see you never. Like with everyone else” I explained “I don’t think I could’ve done that” he said.
“No?” I asked “We talked every day, even on holidays. I would’ve for sure at least checked in on you, every once in a while” he said “I probably would’ve too” i said.
“How are you, like actually doing? After everything i mean, it’s been kinda hectic lately for you” he asked, after a little while.
I sighed “I’m okay i think. Just need time to let it all sink in, you know?” I said “Yeah. But it’s okay if you’re not. Remember No suffering in silence” he said, making me smile
“Yeah I promise. How are you doing? I was too occupied with Chris, to ask how you have felt about moving and stuff” i asked.
“I’m okay. It was hard at first, really hard actually. I wasn’t the one who wanted to go. I wanted to stay in Boston as long as possible. It felt terrifying to have to live somewhere else” he explained and I knew exactly what he meant.
“So what made it okay? Just getting used to it or?” I asked “Yeah. The fact that I can still like talk to my parents every day. Plus you’re here. So at least one thing felt normal..” he said and that warmed my heart so much.
“I’m so happy you guys came: I think I would’ve caved after a couple months, a year tops if you hadn’t” i said “Really? But you have Nessa and Sabrina. Even Tana” he said.
“They’re great, don't get me wrong. But I don't know them like I know you guys. You’re home, you know?”
“Yeah i get what you mean…we’ve known eachother so long” he said “Yeah and also of course they like know my issues, but not in the way you do. For example that party with that stupid guy. If Nessa had been there, I would’ve probably just gone home with her and stuff. But I wouldn’t feel safe in the same way”
“You feel safe with me..?” He asked.
I kinda turned my head slightly, to look at him and he did the same.
“Yeah I really do..” I smiled softly and I could tell it meant a lot to him.
“I'm glad i was there too…i don’t even wanna think about what could’ve happened, if i hadn’t gotten him off you..” he gulped slightly “But you did, and I will be forever thankful for that” i smiled, making him smile as well.
“I talked to sabrine and she said she’s pretty sure we probably trauma bonded” i grinned, making him look slightly confused “Yeah probably”
“Also with a punch like that, i should hire you as my personal bodyguard” i said making him laugh.
“I don’t think i'm trained enough for that” he said “You care about me…i think that’s enough” i said and he softened “Yeah i really do..”
There was a harsh knock on the door making us both sit up “Guys! If you’re still alive I just remembered we have water and snacks stacked in the left corner” it was Nick making us just laugh.
“Okay thanks” i said and we heard footsteps walk away “I could use some water actually” he said and we got up.
“Shit” he said, since it was on a high shelf “I can definitely climb that, if you can make sure I don’t die” i said “Yeah of course”
I climbed up and he supported my hips just slightly.
I grabbed the waters and he put them down.
He went to help me down.
His hand moved to make my shorts ride up revealing the kinda new scars on my thigh.
I tensed, not knowing if I should say something.
He looked at it them back up at me “I uhm- I didn’t know you had started doing that again” he said carefully “I haven’t, I’m not- it was just one time i-“
“Luna” he grabbed my shoulders.
“You know you don’t have to explain yourself to me. Ever okay? I am in no way shaming you or wanting you to feel bad” he just pulled me into his arms and I completely melted against him.
I clinged onto his t-shirt “How long ago was it? If you wanna talk about it of course” he asked as we pulled back a bit “Remember that night you and Chris came and got me..?” I asked and he realised “Oh..”
“So I’m assuming you spoke to Chris about it..?” He asked “A little. I mean I knew he didn’t really understand, so I didn’t wanna bother him too much..” I looked down.
“Hey” he lifted my chin up “You are never ever bothering someone, if you are telling them something like that… it’s important to tell someone” he said “I know I’m sorry..” i said, my eyes glossing over.
“Don’t be sorry..fuck” he just pulled me back into his arms holding me so tight, like he was scared i’d slip away.
I hugged him back “I just- you mean so much to me. I hate the idea of you feeling like you have to do something like that” he said rubbing my back “I know..” i sniffled.
We pulled back “I know I can't just ask you not to do it. But if it happens again, or you feel like that. Please call me. I don’t care what time it is. Call me, and we’ll go on a drive or something. Have a cigarette and a slushie. Just whatever you want, okay?” He said and I wanted to cry, with how much that meant to me.
I didn’t know what to say. I was afraid to say too much. So I just leaned forward and wrapped my arms back around him “Thank you..” I sniffled.
He hugged me back so tight “Don’t tell Nick and Chris, but you’re my best friend..” I said making him chuckle “You’re my best friend too” he said and I let go of him.
Somehow, we ended up back on the floor, attempting to do bottle flips “Fuck off, why are you so good at it” i said since he had done like five in a row.
“Because I practised wayy too much in like 7th grade “ he laughed and did one more.
Eventually we were back in that position on the floor “Do you actually like the beard? And don’t lie” he said making me laugh “Yea i do. Makes you look older. Also with the tattoos and stuff, it's a vibe for sure”
“Alright, I can see that. I really want a new one soon” he said looking at his arm “Yeah me too”
We turned to each other at the same time “Are you thinking what I'm thinking?” I asked and he smiled like a child “Let’s get a matching one”
“Omg yes” I sat up. “Wait, let me look at the ones you have and where you have room.” I grabbed his arm.
I grazed up and down his left one. And I ended up down by his wrist “Where are your rings?” I asked “I forgot to put them on this morning, actually I just got a new set” as he was talking, I just subconsciously played with his fingers.
It was a small thing, but somehow so intimate.
“I love getting new jewellery. I really wanna get a new pair of earrings” i explained “Are these ones new? I like them”
He reached up, putting my hair behind my ear and looking at it “They’re my moms actually, so new in a way” I smiled.
He looked from it back up into my eyes.
His hand kinda slipped over, to hold my cheek. Without even thinking I leaned into his touch.
His thumb rubbed over my cheek. I was thankful for the candles, cause I was blushing so hard.
Once again, he looked like a million thoughts were running through his mind and he was contemplating his entire life in there.
And I just let him. It wasn’t awkward; we just looked at each other with a slight smile, with a sort of mutual understanding.
This was possibly the most romantic setting we could be in. My stomach was a mess of butterflies and I felt like I could vomit, in a good way.
And then the lights turned on. We heard the door alarm turn on and everything was back.
“Oh” i said, slightly disappointed. His hand fell back in his lap.
We heard running on the stairs and then the door opened.
Sabrina and Nick ran in “Oh we've missed you!” She hugged me.
“Relax it’s been like two hours” i chuckled but hugged her back “Still”
We walked back upstairs to everyone “You guys okay? Especially Matt, with the elevator situation” Larray asked.
“Yeah, we’re okay” Matt said looking over at me and I found myself getting all giddy.
We all finally got ready for the movie night.
I was sitting between Sabrina and Matt.
“Dude stop stealing the blanket” i told Matt “I’m not” he said defensively “Fine” he scooted slightly closer and put it more on me “Thank you” i said.
The movie started and Nick had gotten his way, so it was a really scary one.
There was a jumpscare and I hid under the blanket, making Matt laugh “Oh shut up” I said looking back up.
And there was another one, making me turn quickly again leaning back. Which was kinda into Matt's shoulder “You’ll survive. It’s not that scary” he said. But I kept hearing the gory noises “Ew” i hid even further and kinda reached down to hold onto his arm.
“It’s gone now” Sabrina chuckled. I looked back up and sat up straight again “I feel like it’s gonna come back any second” I said terrified and I still hadn’t fully let go of Matt's arm.
“It wont okay? Relax” Matt chuckled and kinda caressed my arm.
Matt wasn’t as touchy as Chris. So whenever he was, it meant so much more. Because I also knew, that he usually had been contemplating it in his head for like 20 minutes before.
I just sat back and tried to just enjoy the movie.
Luckily the rest of it was pretty chill.
I had kinda gotten more comfortable, as well as moving closer to Matt. Then I felt my heart jump.
He was slowly inching his hand closer to mine, under the blanket.
He reached mine and at first kinda stopped. I could tell he was probably nervous.
But then, when I kinda touched his fingers as well, he gave in.
He moved down fully holding my hand and intertwining our fingers.
I smiled without looking at him, but I could tell he was smiling too.
He softly caressed my hand with his thumb and I felt literal butterflies again.
Matt point of view:
As the movie ended I looked down and saw that Luna had fallen asleep. Sort of leaning on my shoulder.
I looked up and saw Sabrina smiling at me “Don't” I pointed my finger at her “I didn’t say anything” she smiled.
She moved a bit in her sleep, only to squeeze my hand softly.
On the inside I was stressing. I couldn’t run from it anymore.
And after today, I kinda felt like she might feel the same way.
Nick and Larray were laughing loudly, making her wake up.
She looked around confused after having opened her eyes. She landed on Sabrina who laughed “You ready to go home and sleep babes?” She asked and Luna nodded with a yawn.
Then she looked back over at me smiling “Sorry” she sat up fully “That’s okay” i smiled and softly caressed her hand.
“I’ll go get my things from Nick's room and then we can go okay?” Sabrina got up and left us alone, while the others were talking on the other end of the couch.
“I'm confused, at first you get so scared and then you fell asleep” i said making her chuckle “I was tired from the distress” she smiled “Right of course”
Sabrina came back down the stairs “C’mon” she said and Luna hesitantly let go of my hand “Goodnight Matty b” she smiled grabbing her phone from the table “Goodnight..”
